Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Spring Reflections and Moving On...

Spring is in the air with daffodils blooming among the snow this morning.  I didn't get a picture, but it was beautiful.  I must admit that it made me realize how much I don't miss the snow in Central Oregon!!  I have mixed feelings about spring coming since our little twin grand~daughters were due to arrive towards the end of April.  But I also know that we have to face all the days ahead with promise that Our God will bring new life and healing to our family.  I have learned so much during this difficult journey and am so thankful to have love and faith to get me through.  There are always lessons to learn and unfortunately, our most painful times in life see the most growth in who we are and what kind of person we become.  I know that I have grown and changed for the better.  I do believe that we are meant to continue to develop throughout our life and learn along the way.  Just because we grow older doesn't mean we can't discover new things about ourselves, things that we could never imagine.  For me, that is knowing that I am so much stronger than I ever thought I could be and that I can be even closer to my loved ones.  My capacity to love has deepened and made me reflect on what is important in this world.  I love two little angels in heaven more than my mind can grasp.  My heart aches to hold them and see them grow up.  As much as I ache, I know that my pain is far less than the pain of our son and daughter~in~love.  They have handled everything with grace and deep love for their girls.  I am beyond words of how proud I am of them.  Spring is a time of growth and new life seen in the budding trees, the bulbs pushing through the soil to blossom in the sun... and even in the snow... and in our hearts as healing begins.  We will never forget our precious little  Emma Mae and Myla Grace...



Barbara Jean said...

Beautiful post Cindy, and all so true.
You have made the good choice, to use this painful event to grow closer to your family and to Him.

May God continue to Bless you all.


Charmingdesigns said...

I love the names the girls were given. Enjoy your spring. Stacey is going to Stayton on Fri. I'm glad she'll be able to see the daffodils she's not real thrilled about the snow.lol. When you have a chance, pick up that watercolor brush!
You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Linda @ Itsy Bits And Pieces said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your family's loss, Cindy...my heart hurts for you...XO

Sonya Badgley said...

Hello dear Cindy,
Your post was beautifully written. And yes, that is definitely when we draw closer to the Lord. Aren't we lucky to have Him? And you are so blessed to have loving children too.
I am thinking and praying for you everyday.

Hopemore Studio said...

Cindy, Oh how you have been on my mind. I have wondered how you were and prayed that your family was mending the pieces back together. Your post is a loving tribute and I know you will always have a place in your heart for the girls.


Unknown said...

Such a sweet post... My prayers are with you all and Im wishing that your pain will be eased somehow. Let's hope Easter will bring a smile to you and your family.


Old Time Cindy said...

Thinking of you and sending a hug.